What the Paleo?

I have been hiding out can you tell?

I gave up writing on this blog because I didn't feel I was being any good to myself or anyone. I felt I was a continual failure for not losing weight no matter what I tried.  Well, my baby has turned one and I have stopped breast feeding. These past few months I feel like I am coming out of a foggy stupor!  I am feeling more and more like my old self on the inside and now I think I am finally ready to match my outside to the inside.  I think that may be half of the battle right there!

                                                                It's a sticky situation

                                                           I'm ready to come out of hiding

My constant struggles of being a stay at home mom and trying to lose weight seem to boil down to a few things:
1. I quit smoking when I found out I was pregnant.  It is a daily struggle not to start smoking again.  Smoking for me was a stress reliever!  It let me cope with all the overwhelming stress in my life and not gain weight.  Now that I don't smoke I eat.
2. Eating. When I get bored, I eat. When I get stressed, I eat.  When I am stuck in the house with screaming bored kids, we all eat.  I don't make healthy choices at these times either! When faced with a carrot stick or the hidden ding dong above the fridge, you know which one I am going for!!
3. Purpose. Because I quit a job that I love to stay home with three kids, I have to find a new meaning and purpose in myself and with my family.  I feel like a lot of the time I lose myself so that everyone else is happy and satisfied.

It's time to take control!!!  I was talking with my brother (a handsome knowledgeable man) and he has been doing the Paleo Diet.  He told me he felt as good as he did in high school and had lost some weight.  I must admit I was very doubtful for myself.  I did some reading though and I like what they have to say about Paleo.  It's going back to the basics of clean eating food (I am a big fan of basics) from when we were nomads and lived good healthy lives (besides being chased by dinosaurs)
It does go against alot of conventional wisdom but being the rebel I am, I love it. 

I know that if we just dive in and change, the children, husband and myself will not be able to stick to it so I am going slowly.  I planned every single meal this week and when I went shopping I only bought fresh produce, eggs and meat.  However, I am not going to throw out the food we already have, I'm going to faze it out slowly.  When it's gone, it's gone and I will replace it with yummy whole foods that are unprocessed and fresh.  My plan is to cook the meals and then give reviews and let you all know what we thought!
I have also enrolled in school to start in the fall.  I am hoping this helps give me a sense of purpose for myself.  In January we got a family pass to the local recreational center and I go a few times a week to work out.  I have lost 10 pounds that way!  I am hoping that by continuing to better myself and learning new things that I can get out of my slump and start to live again!
This week I weigh 195.  My goal is to be 190 or 189 by next week this same time.  As I learn more I will write more and together we will learn. I hope ;)